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A Survivor’s Mind
What’s on my mind? The children faced with the fear of harm, the oppression of being preyed upon. The feeling of being lost, confused and tortured by those that should be offering protection, not suppression and depression.
Burdened with horrific mental reflections, wanting to speak out but terrified the lies being told to them would find a way of being true.
Locked in a cage of mental frustration blocking out illustrations of painful situations brought on by the incestuous manifestations that can not be under- stood but know that somethings not right and they want to scream out and expose the violations of this vile molestation but the stronghold of control exiles communications.
Tears flow like a river through a life that becomes bitter. Fear becomes anger, anger becomes rage, en- raged and still caged because the pain has stained your brain with shame. Your parents are blamed, your behavior is stray. They’re thinking the divorce has made you this way. Their heads shaking at choic- es and mistakes that you make.
Crying for help
But you can’t find a way, wondering if what he did to you makes you gay. Thinking three decades have passed and he still has you tamed, why can’t you be brave and expose this cowards name?
Then the day comes you find someone with the same pain, not knowing at first that your lives can relate. Through trust and security you open the gate, free- dom, at last, it’s never too late. Parents be mindful and always beware because no relation or gender is exempt from despair. With that being said now what’s on your mind?
-Michael A. Wall
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