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And  yet,  for  reasons  beyond  understanding,  Dr.  Aslan’s  face  split  into  a

                grin.
                    “This is wonderful news!”
                    Olive blinked. And then blinked again. “It’s . . . not?”

                    “Nonsense.” Dr. Aslan stood and walked around her desk, running her
                hand  up  and  down  Olive’s  arm  in  what  she  clearly  intended  as  a

                congratulatory gesture. “This is fantastic. A talk will give you much more
                visibility  than  a  poster.  You  might  be  able  to  network  for  a  postdoctoral

                position. I am so, so happy for you.”
                    Olive’s jaw dropped. “But . . .”

                    “But?”
                    “I cannot give a talk. I can’t talk.”
                    “You’re talking right now, Olive.”

                    “Not in front of people.”
                    “I am people.”

                    “You’re  not  many  people.  Dr.  Aslan,  I  can’t  talk  in  front  of  a  lot  of
                people. Not about science.”

                    “Why?”
                    “Because.” Because my throat will dry up and my brain will shut down

                and  I  will  be  so  bad  that  someone  from  the  audience  will  take  out  a
                crossbow and shoot me in the kneecap. “I’m not ready. To speak. In public.”
                    “Of course you are. You’re a good public speaker.”

                    “I’m  not.  I  stammer.  I  blush.  I  meander.  A  lot.  Especially  in  front  of
                large crowds, and—”

                    “Olive,” Dr. Aslan interrupted her with a stern tone. “What do I always
                tell you?”

                    “Um . . . ‘Don’t misplace the multichannel pipette’?”
                    “The other thing.”

                    She sighed. “ ‘Carry yourself with the confidence of a mediocre white
                man.’ ”
                    “More than that, if possible. Since there is absolutely nothing mediocre

                about you.”
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