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I know my Joyselyn would never agree with this assessment of my sinful behavior. She would only acknowledge the
man she and The Lord knew I was meant to be. It seems so impossible to live up to. The only wonder I could find

within; is the love I have for this most incredible gift of a wife. Knowing this love could only have been planted in my
heart by the Father’s hand. His passion for me is shown through this precious woman. All the beauty of this world

and the blessing placed in my arms to have and to hold. My sins and lackadaisical life have stolen so much from
us. Knowing this great love that has passed before me could have been so far off the charts. What a loss; what a time
to wake up. I cannot waste any more time nor put to waste Joyselyn’s dreams of me being the man she so lovingly

saw me be. So, saddened that my Joyselyn is not with me, seeing the changes coming in this late life of mine. God
willing, I will honor her by living the vision she faithfully and fervently prayed over me.

I have always believed in my heart that He, YAH is the Great I AM., but as sin would have it, I thought I could do it my
way. How foolish for anyone to think such a thing. My Heavenly Father loved me enough to send His Son, Jesus Christ,

to die for me, and as a second bonus, sent me my lovely wife, Joyselyn. She shared her love with me and that of the
Father every day. She was always this earth’s treasure sent from above.

God has always looked out for me. I'm not sure why I was so protected, loved, and blessed. Saved me from so many

dangerous activities that I found myself involved. Now that I am sitting here alone without my Joyselyn by my side, my
natural and only important question is, Why? Why Father? Why? Why have you spared me? I am sure the answers

will come at my Adonai’s appointed time. Joyselyn wrote on a sticky note a few days before leaving and posted it on
my keyboard. It read, “Seek Adonai while He may be found. Pray for His plan, purpose, and will for you.” My Joyselyn
has done her best to prayerfully lead me to freedom by loving and trusting our Adonai. So, it begins!

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