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of the same kind are necessary for the individual to be-
come conscious of himself; but here there is the difference
that, although everyone becomes equally conscious of his
body as a separate and complete organism, everyone does
not become equally conscious of himself as a complete and
separate personality. The feeling of apartness from others
comes to most with puberty, but it is not always developed
to such a degree as to make the difference between the indi-
vidual and his fellows noticeable to the individual. It is such
as he, as little conscious of himself as the bee in a hive, who
are the lucky in life, for they have the best chance of hap-
piness: their activities are shared by all, and their pleasures
are only pleasures because they are enjoyed in common;
you will see them on Whit-Monday dancing on Hampstead
Heath, shouting at a football match, or from club windows
in Pall Mall cheering a royal procession. It is because of
them that man has been called a social animal.
Philip passed from the innocence of childhood to bitter
consciousness of himself by the ridicule which his club-foot
had excited. The circumstances of his case were so peculiar
that he could not apply to them the ready-made rules which
acted well enough in ordinary affairs, and he was forced
to think for himself. The many books he had read filled
his mind with ideas which, because he only half under-
stood them, gave more scope to his imagination. Beneath
his painful shyness something was growing up within him,
and obscurely he realised his personality. But at times it
gave him odd surprises; he did things, he knew not why,
and afterwards when he thought of them found himself all