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to himself. The man who lies to himself can be more eas-
           ily offended than anyone. You know it is sometimes very
           pleasant to take offence, isn’t it? A man may know that no-
            body has insulted him, but that he has invented the insult
           for himself, has lied and exaggerated to make it picturesque,
           has caught at a word and made a mountain out of a mole-
           hill — he knows that himself, yet he will be the first to take
            offence, and will revel in his resentment till he feels great
           pleasure in it, and so pass to genuine vindictiveness. But
            get up, sit down, I beg you. All this, too, is deceitful postur-
           ing...’
              ‘Blessed man! Give me your hand to kiss.’
              Fyodor  Pavlovitch  skipped  up,  and  imprinted  a  rapid
            kiss on the elder’s thin hand. ‘It is, it is pleasant to take of-
           fence. You said that so well, as I never heard it before. Yes, I
           have been all my life taking offence, to please myself, taking
            offence on aesthetic grounds, for it is not so much pleas-
            ant as distinguished sometimes to be insulted — that you
           had forgotten, great elder, it is distinguished! I shall make
            a note of that. But I have been lying, lying positively my
           whole life long, every day and hour of it. Of a truth, I am a
            lie, and the father of lies. Though I believe I am not the fa-
           ther of lies. I am getting mixed in my texts. Say, the son of
            lies, and that will be enough. Only... my angel... may some-
           times talk about Diderot! Diderot will do no harm, though
            sometimes a word will do harm. Great elder, by the way, I
           was forgetting, though I had been meaning for the last two
           years to come here on purpose to ask and to find out some-
           thing. Only do tell Pyotr Alexandrovitch not to interrupt

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