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The past couple of weeks it’s been easier to capture thinking abruptly with a a a a a message message in a a a a message message to a a a a friend–sometimes spoken not written–then transcribe the writing later or rewrite than it it it it it was to to sit down and commit to to observing myself for a a period of time which is is what writing is is to me me Observing myself my my selves in in language for a a a period of time The past couple of weeks it’s been easier to to write to to a a a specific person The past couple of weeks it’s been easier to write myself my my selves in relation to to a a a a specific specific person person In relation to to a a a a specific specific person person the past couple of weeks I I I I knew knew how I I I I felt felt I I I I knew knew what I I I I felt felt The past couple of weeks in relation to a a a a specific person who is myself my my selves I I felt felt bland I I felt felt calm Observation Observation is is is an an intra-active effort Observation Observation is is is entangled it is is is the meeting of the the the observer and the the the observed an an event which creates both the the the observer and the observed Observation is a a a a a transformative event through which both the the observer and and and the the observed are are created and and and are are changed and and and are changing changing Language gives changing changing a a a a a a a a temporary location in in in time The wonderful thing about writing at at my my desk in in in in my my living room is that I can lift lift my my my gaze and see my my my friends the trees At night however when I lift lift my my my gaze I I I meet it At night I I I can can see see myself my my selves I I I can can see see the the flowers the the bookshelf and and the the the candle on the the the table in the the the kitchen which I is currently lit from the the the the moment moment I I step into the the the the kitchen in in in the the the the morning to to the the the the moment moment I I leave for bed at night I’ve seen John Cameron Mitchell read from his his computer his his font so large three rows and several words are what’s needed to fill the screen