Page 397 - Thorn In The Heart

Chinh Nguyên

"Once... it was enough to me. " Hanh-Phuong replied.

She looked down to the floor to hid thinking of Nguyen that
crosses her mind. She hoped to see him again to know what he
changed on his smile, his eyes and how his to live was be. His body is
still intact or lost a part after the lunar new year 1968.

After Hanh-Phuong had a quick look out of the living room
window, she had a little short sight and continue her thinking: What
will I do at the party if I don't see him there? I will cry or laugh, happy
or sorrow. Why I thought of Nguyen a lot while he didn't and forgot
me. He may throw away all of the words that he had said with me on
the party even my name...!

Hanh-Phuong had asked herself too many time that it was the
first love for her? But she could not has an answer for it. She also
doesn't know why it was Nguyen but not other. What happens
between her and Nguyen? One midnight she had awakened. She
thought of her parent then she was cried, and suddenly she thought
of Nguyen. Hanh-Phuong remembered his smile, his bright deep
brown eyes, his warm hand that placed on her narrow while he led
her dancing on the floor. Hanh-Phuong always had a sight after she
had thought over of Nguyen and said with herself: Forget it, he never
knows what and who am I? Met him at one time...! Like a butterfly,
he was flying on the garden flowers, and I was a little wildflower.
Therefore he never pays attention to it.

Nguyen. I met you, talked with you and fell on your arms by the
music and step of valse on the floor. It was just one time only, and
we were far apart after that party, and I had remembered all
things...! Nguyen. Do you know that my life such as my draft papers?
I hope it will be a success of my first book, but I forgot to mark the
number on each page in order by my inexperience. I gave it to you
with my hope you will read it and understand what I want to be. You
opened my draft papers but didn't read it. You had dropped them on
the floor in an accident, and you don't know how to put it back in the
order even me! Nguyen, You had to muddle my draft life papers. I

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