Page 459 - Thorn In The Heart

Chinh Nguyên

into the truth by their existence --- The soul and the body were
reacting one to the other, rethinking past actions, calling to be
honest, to feel sorrow, and they were sobbed. But with the daunting
of the next day, they turn back to the old states of living with
dishonesty and hypocrisy. " Nguyen said.

Suddenly, Phuong raised her voice as she said :

" Nguyen, what did you see out there? Why did you try to avoid
away

from my feeling? Why are you looking at me so totally different
from the first time, that we met in Van's house? What did you think
about me? Please tell me...! "

Nguyen shook his head and raised his hands to the air.

" I didn't think anything about you, and I never look into the
secret life of any people. I didn't look at you, because in suddenly, I
thought of the past, that I was a student, young and lovely life in
Saigon capital. I hold in my arms of full dreams from my youth. Love
was like the butterflies playing among the flowers at the morning in
the sun light; future was like the blue sky, wide and bright, friends
were like the mesh of union, hands hold hands to stand, fervently,
hopping, and patient with the idea to built up our country...! But
every thing were out of my arms now...! My dreams are broken up
along with the smoking and fire of the war...! Some of my friends
were died in their turn by the bombs, bullets, and shells...! I was
releasing all of my dreams, my soul was empty, and without useful
work. " He replied.
Phuong shook her head as she said :

" No... You misunderstood my question. "

" Phuong, What did you try to tell me? Please, speak up. Don't
tell me anything that's unclear. I would like to hear the truth, even
though it's cruel. " He said in emotionless.

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