Page 510 - Thorn In The Heart

Thorns in the Heart I

Grandparents had united and continued to stand up against the
Chinese invader, 100 years they resisted French militarist, and at our
time, our front was Viet-Cong...! They were Vietnamese too...! They
talked, learned the same language and history we were. Why didn't
they communicate or converse with us? Why did they want to make
war to kill the people and destroy the country? It was their country
too! Why didn't they reunite with us such as our Great Grandparent
had done at a long time ago to construct our nation in the peaceful?
Instead, they wanted to see their blood brother? I didn't understand
them...! I hope someday... they will look back their roots and find out
where they came from. I wish it is not too late for them...!

The difference between Viet-Cong and us was: we learned to
defense, to love and to share, to wish our country is growing and
strong. They learned to the offense, to kill and bloody brother, to
destroy, to put the yoke on the people's neck.

I don't know when our battalion will jump into the dead zone
land...! I only know that either maybe I will be back to see you with
my body losing its part, if I will press my luck at the right time to
survive ! or I will never be back to hole my lover tightly in my arms
again !

Life was too short...! I set my life in the fire and rolled it with the
war since it was more short than I thought of it...! How we can live in
the peace without pain and sorrow of our present conditions ! how
we can laugh loudly in the happiness without sobbing and cry!

Family...! My parent was very tired, and their hairs turned gray
before their old ages because the war was so long in their lifetime...
Now, they were over 80 years old. They still sorrow over a
misfortune of their sons, because two of my brother died at the
same time on a different battlefield. Therefore sometimes I took a
vacation to go back home, they looked at me and held me in their
emotion, their tears had dropped on my face. I looked at them and
felt that their health was going down because their arms were not
strong like before when they were holding me. Their hairs were

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