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Thank you for reading any amount of that! I watched Conan’s program before I knew about Hilary. I believe I found
Hilary as a result of looking for Conan-related websites. In those days I could connect to a person via internet fan-
dom.
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8:30 pm, October 22, 2017

Robot Parsley sez:
“1999 to 2003 seemed like a huge expanse of time, then 2003 to 2007 was another, and suddenly I misplaced a whole
decade without noticing.”
Ugh, ain’t that the truth.

I only had a vague notion of this person, mostly as the originator of the “AAAAAH, MEINE AUGEN!” quote which
made me assume you spoke German for years, and also the dead body story which I remember seeing for some
reason once, and which vividly stuck with me ever after. Nevertheless, it was somewhat unsettling news to read. I’m
pretty sure long-term background figures on the internet who are only about five or so years older than you are not
supposed to die, or at least that’s that’s the narrative I had subconsciously subscribed to. I was recently vaguely
saddened when I found out the Time Cube Guy died a few years ago, and he was like 205 and a tattered, deteriorated
shell of a mind reduced to spouting occasionally racist gibberish in gigantic garish letters whom I never had even
parallel interaction with. Hmm. Mmn.

(On a side note, I’m vaguely unnerved to discover I was already referring to myself as “The Rocking son of
Dschingis Khan” in 2011. If I only knew then how deep that descent would go…)

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10:47 pm, October 22, 2017

Frimpinheap sez:

Gosh, I am then also give years older than you! I could drop dead at any moment.
Thank you for reading and replying! I did not mean to cut off our last discussionoid so abruptly but it has been a
stranger than usual few weeks.
I was inclined to think of Hilary as somebody I had known long enough that neither of us was going to have a sharp
shift in circumstances or personality that made us totally inaccessible to the other person. I did not feel like I needed
to impress Hilary, because she seemed to accept what I was.
I have thought about you like that to a degree; consider that you are one of three internet people of whom I have
drawn non-creature versions, and the other one disappeared five years ago, but you are similar to me in the respect of
being hard to read. Perhaps even more similar than I am to myself in some ways.

Indeed it subconsciously entered my mind that the “permanent” people were supposed to be with me, at least until
we accomplished our goals, or set up events which would lead to that. If they die, does that mean that I ran out of
time to succeed? Or that I failed in some more profound way which led to this death? That is illogical, and yet my
mind always goes there, that I should have been able to do something which would have prevented this.
Oddly enough I was thinking about Time Cube. I have these two contextless images dated january 16 2002 that
Hilary made amidst my timecube obsession during 200x.