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Orion’s power comes from consistency. Sometimes I feel lazy and don’t want to take my daily walk. Orion, very nicely, points out that it would be easy to skip today, but not a good idea. I take my walk.
More importantly, on the eating side, I often want to use food or alcohol as a way to deal with stress caused by anxiety or worry. Orion again points out the difference between eating or drinking for joy and nutrition or for escape.
That doesn’t mean I never eat or drink things that might be considered unhealthy. It just means that with Orion’s help I make a conscious choice.
On decisions that might lead to embarrassment, my connection with Orion has been very fulfilling.
One of the worst fears that I have, and I suspect many others have, is the fear of public embarrassment. As a result, I tend to hold back on asking a question or expressing my feelings.
Orion often gives me permission to express. I have found great fulfillment from the courage to be myself in the presence of what, in the past, might have been an embarrassing situation.
Finally, it’s been said that “no decision is a decision.” When one is faced with a difficult choice, there is internal violence. All too often, you have to give up something to get something else.
I call that emotional violence.
I’ll never forget the anxiety and stress when deciding to divorce the mother of our children. The marriage wasn’t working out and I went back and forth internally when considering the options.
At the time, Orion didn’t exist for me. The decision essentially went on for years, even to the extent that after the first divorce, I went back and remarried the same woman.
As my son said:
“Dad, I knew you and mom were like oil and water, but you made it so much more hurtful because of the uncertainty you gave to all of us.”
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