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Your Thought Life & Dusting Off Your Dreams

Christy Webb
C h r i s t y W e b b
addition to all that made for His grace! I’ve never had
2020, well 2020, but maybe, to repeat a “word” before, but

I lost my vision. I’m sure we all remember the like me, you also faced some I also understood that this
one is really important and
first few weeks of the novel
significant challenges or losses.
virus, dubbed COVID-19, and In the span of one year we that it would be my word
Let me clarify, I didn’t lose my how there was fear and had a wedding, followed until I got it right. You know
eyesight, I lost my vision...and uncertainty in abundance while closely by my husband having that whole going around the
veered way off course.
toilet paper, Lysol and hand a 2 week hospital stay due to mountain thing until you
sanitizer became scarce. complications from Multiple grasp the lesson? That’s
Suddenly many of us were Sclerosis, an adult child with a what this is about. If I want

Like many people, I started working from home, our kids serious addiction that resulted to see my vision realized,
2020 with hope, focus, dreams, were forced into virtual in some jail time, extensive and reach my goals and live out
plans, goals….and a vision learning and life as we knew it intrusive issues with an ex- my purpose, I have to be
board to organize them all in came skidding to an spouse, the loss of my job and serious about discipline.
one place. It was the first time unexpected stop. Restaurants subsequent 4 months of
I had ever created a vision closed, movie theaters closed, unemployment (without
board. I spent a lot of time at gyms closed, public gatherings unemployment benefits), a I know I am not the only one
the end of 2019 thinking, were either forbidden or damaged relationship with who struggles with this and
praying, and talking to my severely restricted. For months another child due to wanting this to be my last
fiancé, now husband, about we were given grim daily circumstances beyond our trip around this particular
what intentional living would reports of cases, death tolls control, the loss of my mountain, I started to dig
look like for the new year. For and hospitalizations. New husband’s job a couple of into some of the “whys”
several years now, I have symptoms emerged. Officials weeks before Christmas and outside of the typical time,
prayed for the Lord to give me and doctors argued about the loss of my precious focus, and resources reasons.
a word to focus on for the what treatments would and Grandmother...the last Remember our unwelcomed
coming year, and for 2020 my wouldn’t work. We all, to some patriarch of my family and friends from 2020:
word was “discipline”. Oh, the extent, lived in crisis mode, one of my very best friends. uncertainty, doubt, fear,
irony of THAT word. It sits isolated from our friends, Stress was through the roof! isolation, distractions and
boldly at the center of my extended families, church To say that all of my carefully stress? I found that they all
vision board as a reminder families and work colleagues, planned goals and dreams fell play a role in derailing us
that all the other dreams, swallowing the fear the media to the wayside would be an from reaching our goals,
goals and plans hinge on the doled out, masked, fearful and understatement! dreams and potential. Let’s
execution of that single word. swimming in the uncertainty of look at each one.
It was to be a year of promise, what the future would hold.
growth and change!
As 2020 was coming to a close
I, once again, sought the Lord
All of this is enough to derail for a word for 2021. It sure Uncertainty
But then life happened. A most people and knock them didn’t take long to get an
pandemic happened. And they off their feet, even if just answer…about 2 seconds, Uncertainty starts to niggle
brought some unwelcomed temporarily. But we all had really. He said, “’discipline’ at us when we are faced with
friends: uncertainty, doubt, other, regular life issues to because you didn’t master it the unknown. We begin to
fear, isolation, distractions and continue to deal with as well. yet.” Well, that was a kind way question, or second guess,
stress. I’m not sure what you faced in of putting it! I’m so grateful where we are going. Instead

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