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If our mind is really serene, we will see it as just one dimension, as just an image that emerges. Therefore, every time we see an image like this, how do we feel? How does it impact our state of mind? (A practitioner answers: No impact). Can fabrication, de lement emerge? Observe: How come we can see images in this way? This is a type of wilful contemplation—using a serene mind to experience. If we consistently see images this way, observe how our mind will be. (Our mind) will be barren—seeing everything with indifference. Not necessary! Equanimity (upekkha) and indifference are not the same.
Observe this: The language that we use—if we use it and our mind is still, serene—then it is an equanimity that is expansive and powerful. It will be comfortable, not chaotic. And, it will not be deeply absorbed into any particular natural condition. Instead, it will experience everything. This is an equanimity feeling that is expansive, expansive without self, serene without self. Try it. Make our feeling that is serene as expansive as this hall. How do we feel? To be still just here (narrowly) and to be still and as expansive as the hall—how do we feel?
We feel free, correct? We feel comfortable, free... How about on this side: How do we feel? (A practitioner answers: If focused on a particular point, it feels strained). How about if we expand it out, how do we feel? (A practitioner answers: Uncluttered). More comfortable—