Page 116 - Extinguishment of self, in search of dhamma

108
freedom, comfort—and, then observe this comfortable mind. This equanimous mind does not refuse natural conditions. We feel serene. Observe this: An expansive equanimity, an expansive mind—do they refuse any natural condition? See, they do not refuse any natural condition. Even though these natural conditions are not refused, they do not impact our mind. Is this strange? Not refusing natural conditions but making these natural conditions exist in an empty space. This is exceptional. This (method) can be used. Once we know it, use it often, use it a lot—this is the state of mind.
Now, when we practice dhamma—the state of mind that changes—observe how it changes from before. From the overall state of mind that although was unburdened but still felt somewhat heavy—to now, it is unburdened and lighter than before; or, it is as unburdened as before but now more serene. Or, serene (like before) but lighter. Or, more stable than before but lighter than before. See, we can tell how our state of mind changes; how the period of our natural conditions changes. Just now, when we made our feelings expansive, our equanimity expansive—that was only for the brief duration of our re ection or our contemplation. But, if we can do it often, that is a very good thing. If we want to use it often, we need to have the intention to use it.
If we do not have intention, then we will come back to our disposition. It is called coming back to our true