Page 5 - Written Feelings

Mad hatter

My heaven is very hellish, it makes hell seem so heavenly
If this is grace, then I do not want. Its pretty much hell to me
I have people who support me, and I should be thankful
But they expect too much from me, their hopes are chock full

I keep disappointing my loved ones left and right
Up until to point where my life is "oh you left? alright"
I have ADHD, it means that I am short of sight
And make so many plans that I may not do, or might

My brain is very messed up, I don’t remember much
My childhood memories are a bunch of stories my parents told me during lunch
It’s weird, they ask me "hey don’t you remember such and such?"
And I just nod my head "no" look down while my back is hunched

I don’t I have depression, at least not to my very knowledge
I think I've been feeling better ever since I left for college

I don’t punch walls, and get cuts that I have to bandage
And I don't get mad to point where I could cause a carnage

Happiness is a very exaggerated concept
It's a big lie that people made and left the con kept
It's not a pure feeling, and it’s definitely not God sent
And if I'm being honest it's not really worth a damn cent

Not feeling sad all the time is what really matters
It's real not fake, so personally I'd pick the latter
Cause you don’t have to be happy, to smile laugh and chatter
So stop chasing a lie or you'd go mad like Alice's hatter

Be true to yourself, cry when tears are due
Put the book on the shelf, stop fantasizing too
Nothing is perfect everyone gets sad like you
Don’t let them fool you, they fake smile, we all do