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wants something he will get it , you may say no but it wont stop him

to do as he wants too.

We had some good times some fantastic times and some bad times. I

do trust him more now than I did then we are all doing stupid things

and it all depevd on how you do it and not what you doing.

I think after Nikos I shut down big part of my heart and somehow I

couldn’t bring it up qagain so one day I love a man more the next

day less.

When someone does not recognize you and what you have done

because of your gender it’s hurtful, and fuck the rest but Nikos

himself didn’t gave me the benefit of been called his partner because

he was ashamed of been who he was and that left me with a bitter

taste in my mouth.

I did look up to him and I must say I was in love with him or was not

I?

Some of my thinking tells me I was never in love with him. In fact I

don’t think I was or ever falling in love with anyone, then again

what you suppose to feel when in love

I read the books tea I listen to people been in love and some of what

they are saying I lived and some not.

We are all different and I don’t expect to feel all thoise things they

sau you suppose to feel but at list half of them.

With Nikos I felt what I felt with Billy it was different with Brian

also different.