Page 145 - ILIAS ATHANASIADIS AKA RO1

During the years I thought about it a lot. I created many scenarios

what he would have done if he was still alive. Would I be in

London? Am I still in realation ship with him? Keep in mind his

mother is still alive and he loves her and he wants to make her

happy.

Also he involved with Jullie Why? Was he ashamed been gay? Why

he got involved with Jullie?

AS I know Nikos I will make up his profile as accurate as I can.

Also Nikos best friend is gay previously involved with a woman

having to look after a child as well and Nikos wanted tio have the

experience.

Still as HIV man he would go ahead and married Jullie I do not

know about having a child as HIV involved but he would have try to

fins a solution around it. He wanted to make his mother happy there

for he woukld have married her.

What about me?

He loved me there is no doubt, he is going to put himself in the bad

situation but knowing my love for him was strong he will put me in

to test and that I am 100% he knows I can take the pain of loss and

he knows I am survivor.

He will go ahead and hurt me married to Jullie but evertytime he

wanted me he is almost 100% I would have him back. Woukd I?

I think tes nikos is right I would have just to show him how much I

love him vbut I will miss my future and he knows that but in order to

please his mother my feelings come third.