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thinking of the sityation I feel angry towards Nikos and Jullie. They

never thought I was worth thinking about and they ignored me?

Last time I saw Nikos he knew I was going for good he knew I was

upset and he wanted to hug me and I shook his hand because I hated

them both.

Was I wrong? Did I behave as a child? I want tyo ask him and to tell

me the truth but It is too late as he is gone and I can not change the

past either change any future.

Do I like thios future? There is always the I don’t know answer or

could be better? I want more is the most common answer but How

can we demand more when we can’t really copy with what we

already have.

Nikos case will bother me till I die I guess I will never find out the

truth and sometimes it is best not to know the truth because it hyurts

too much.

All I know is I am glad I met him I learn a great deal from him, good

and bad, maybe he didn’t love me as much as I wanted him Too,

maybe Jullie was an escape to finish with me and he didn’t find the

how to and use her as an excuse.

Another big question is how can you dump someone you love

knowing he has got the same deadly virus asd yopu and there is no

cure he will die as well so how can you ignore him and go holidays

with a new lover youi just found .

Does that make the other guy feel good if not why you wanna make

feel bad knowing he loves you. What kind of a man are you to do

this and can you justify your action.