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the passenger's door opens and my partner sits down. He has food so we start to eat, and then after
a while he asks me why I do this.

Later on in the dream I find out that we were sitting in a parked car because we were waiting for
this corrupt law enforcement officer to come home. I tell my partner that I don't do these things so
much because I love the innocent, but because I hate the wicked. I tell him that there is more hate in
my heart than there is love.

What makes a person more hateful than loving? Is there a mathematical formula? Is it
environmental influence? Is it simply biology? Maybe each person at one point in their life is
ultimately defined by a dominant emotion. Maybe there is one emotion for each of us that will
develop who we are. If at that point you are always feeling angry, you will start to develop this
angry persona along with all the emotions and feelings that can be branched from it, emotions like
hatred and feelings like contemptment. This is you turning on your anger gene, your hate gene.

Or maybe at that point you are always feeling peaceful and you start to develop this persona that is
always patient and loving. This mind that turns on the kindness gene, the love gene. This hatred
that I feel asks for peace, for balance in a world that seems to be run by evil people. Balance has
become such a large portion of my psychology that when I stub my toe, I have to stub the other so
that they both feel pain.

Suddenly my partner puts on his sad theater mask, and I look out the windshield and I see the law
enforcement officer walking into his home. In the theater of ancient Greece a comedy had a happy
ending and a tragedy had a sad ending. Performers often wore masks to conceal their identity so
that the audience didn't associate a specific character with a specific role. That fisheye view.

A performer who was a king in one scene could be a peasant in another. Theater masks, or drama
masks, are often associated with the genre of drama, where the happy-looking mask represents
comedy and the sad-looking mask represents tragedy. Everyone has heard of the philosophy that in
order to know happiness one must know sadness.

There is a theory that in order for you to be happy, someone else in the world has to be sad. Perhaps
these are to keep a sort of balance in the world, to be able to co-exist.

After he puts on his mask he is about to get out of the car but I tell him to sit down. I tell him that if
we want to get the mayor on corruption as well, we will need to find out about him by watching
one of his closest friends, this law enforcement officer. Then when we have him, he will know who
we are.

We will show him our faces so that he can associate these faces with the people who killed him.
For the few seconds he would have to live anyway. This hate gene that turns on will make us prone
to the murder disease.

Chapter 20:
"PROSTITUTE'S FOOT AMPUTATED"

Last night, I had a nightmare. In and out, back and forth, up and down. There are moments when I