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moved back to California to pursue midwifery. I
wrote about it in the first issue of La Bola...
I came back to fashion after spending my twen-
ties working in worker co-ops. I was just
trying to go back to school for fun but then it
got serious when I found out I could take
fashion classes for free in California. Be-
sides the usual crust punk upkeep I hadn’t sewn
in like ten years, but I had been running this
fashion blog for a couple of years at the time
so aesthetically I was pretty on top of my game.
Some people I go to school with are like the
psychical form of a pumpkin spice latte, a lot
of people don’t know how to handle me and will
act confused or intimidated. Once again like my
social life I exist in between things so I am
constantly like overacademic in fashion classes
where my teachers are either annoyed or aston-
ished and I struggle in academics with things
that don’t revolve around liberation theories
or post-modern art movements. I don’t really let
it affect me but I do notice it. I am more in-
terested in taking what I can from these places
with a critical eye and basically using academia
as a springboard for tackling the enormous beast
that is fashion. I want to create a fashion his-
tory narrative that centers non-western fashion
and basically destroy the practice of grave dig-
ging or as we know of it archaeology. I am also
really interested in battling with museums to
return their stolen and contested artefacts.
Overall I see fashion in an everyday context as
something really powerful - clothing as social
armour especially for marginalized folks and
even more in a queer/trans concept. People don’t
really think about it because most are just
clothes meh, but to me these are sacred expres-
sions which can tell you a lot about people!
And would you like to write anything at all,
about mental health issuesssss...
I have dealt with being a literal crey for
like my whole life. I am just coming to terms
with being ok with it. I get frustrated at
myself for like not being able to “act right”
but what is right? I give myself priorities
like friends, alone time, education, sleep,
fun, food! I try not to take on big tasks that
I will know will fry my brain, but I also try
to stay extremely busy. Its what keeps me from
stopping and wallowing even though sometimes
that can be really cathartic for me, but I am
in my Saturn Return now and I feel like I have
all these little drawers in my head and I am
dumping all of them on the floor and
reorganizing everything, its so good! I have
also learned to take space in places and
scenarios where I am marginalized I have become
really adamant and visible because this world
would rather just see me dead/consumed into the
void and not like a cool one either. Survival
after abuse/after brain damage is kinda hard
sometimes I am trapped under the weight of the
world and feel like just going on disability
but I take shit just one day at a time and keep
really tight relationships and make sure to do
a lot of self reflection and work.
I also want to thank/shout out to my snoopz
Enola Dismay, she writes the zine ‘No Gods, No
Mattress’ and reading her work around self-care
and talking to her has been really helpful. She
unapologetically puts herself out there, it is
really inspiring.