Page 181 - Under the Cover of Darkness

up and says "It looks like you're writing a suicide note,
need some help?"

2 March 2013 —
A brilliant, successful exhibition today at The Custard
Factory in Birmingham! The entire, historical building
was transformed into a bustling centre of vibrant
creativity. An inspiring showcase of all sorts of artistry, I
made a few sales & a few new admirers of my work!

3 March 2013 —
I never painted or drew anything for YEARS after leaving
college. Art College was one of the worst things ever to
happen to my Art career. It (& other things) totally
battered my confidence & authenticity. It's probably in
the past 5 years that I've come back (home) to my Art,
having reached such a low point emotionally & mentally
that I had NOTHING TO LOOSE - which is a very
liberating starting point! Looking back to the work I did
5years ago & comparing it to my current stuff I can see
how I've developed even in that time. FEAR is too often
the thing that stops Artists. "Feel the Fear & Do It
Anyway!"

3 March 2013 —
Well, I got through the exhibition with LOTS of help, but
my M.E finally kicked in on route home in the car when
we had to stop in a beautifully picturesque car park in
Mosely so I could slump over, deep breathing so as not
to throw up, head dripping with sweat. SUCH a
GLAMOROUS finish to the day! (Oh well, as long as
you fool 'em during the show right?!)