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to go to heaven, I am not ready for it; but having Sasha in my life right now will help ease the pain of losing my best friend of 14 plus years and all the fun times we had.
PTSD isn’t something you get over. You don’t go back to being who you were. It’s more like a nightmarish snow globe. War disturbs your being and your sense of self, and suddenly all those pieces of your life, and even in your dreams, are floating in the air just out of your grasp. You will never come down exactly where you once were. You’re a changed person after combat, not better, and not worse just different. If you are trying to recover the old you that's the worst thing you can do to yourself and your loved ones.
One day at a time is all I can take. I never look for tomorrow because tomorrow may never come in my life. These demons one day will take my life. So with God at one side and Duke and Sasha on the other I have the fighting chance to live another day. Another day to live life to the fullness of what God has for me. The military shaped person I am now. It made me stronger. It made me want to fight for my rights and for my freedom. Duke and Sasha are a vital part of my strength and always will be, whether they are still here or are waiting for me in heaven.
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