Page 956 - Total War on PTSD

I do have issues with insomnia and I take something every night to help me sleep. It doesn't always work. If I don't take it, sometimes I am great at staying up for days on end. I deal with anxiety issues, especially with crowds and unfamiliar situations. I deal with anger, especially with those people who like to push your buttons. Sometimes, pushed the right way, or the wrong way depending on how you look at it, it sometimes triggers that deeper anger. My family agrees though that my anger issues have gotten significantly better...or rather they are less of an issue...less triggered than before.
I feel like PTSD is a weakness in the sense that it shouldn't be happening...that I am better than that. That, with my background and my training and the job that I do, that I should be above that. I recognize now that it's not a weakness and that being able to deal with it and persevere through it is actually a strength...to not be broken. I have definitely undergone an attitude change in that regard. I don't really see a difference between the 'label' of PTSD or PTS. You either have the issues, the PTSD, or you don't. One letter doesn't really make a difference. There are still a lot of people who don't want to show accept that they have such an issue; there are some who really don't know they have it; and there are others who don't develop the issue until much later in life, once they retire from work or the military. Sometimes PTSD shuts some people's lives down and not others. It all depends on the individual and their own experiences. I have issues of my own in relation to my amputation. A lot of the guys I know have moved on and it's as natural as can be to not have a leg. It's just one of those things. It's just different and everybody's different.
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