Page 51 - Amrit Varta - Issue Feb. 2023 - English

Vol. 27, No.1, February 2023 MA ANANDAMAYEE AMRIT VARTA 39

and more than thousand Kumari-puja’s were held too. And on a permanent and
regular basis worship of Shree Shree Ma Annapurna, Shree Shree Ma Kali,
Shree Shree Narayan, Shree Shree Shiva, Shree Shree Ganesh, Shree Shree
Bal-Gopal and Shree Shree Agni-devta are performed every day.
Just after the inauguration of the Kashi Ashram on the banks of the River
Ganga, the Supreme affectionate and compassionate Shree Shree Ma instructed
me to reside permanently in the Ashram. And I was such a fool that from my
inner most soul I just could not agree to this request. Even though I could very
well understand that this was an extreme hurdle in my path to salvation, still I
could not give my whole-hearted consent to Ma. Even though I was going against
Ma’s request, such was Shree Shree Ma’s kheyal that Ma still blessed me. This
incident was of the year 1945 or 1946. On Shree Shree Ma’s instruction though
I stayed in the Ashram for quite some-time, I returned back to my old residence
outside the Ashram. I was not able to become a permanent ashramite. This is
also true that I did not even have the requisite caliber to be able to permanently
reside within the Ashram.
Shree Shree Ma again arrived in Kashi. Hearing this I rushed to the Ashram
in the afternoon to have Ma’s darshan. Ma was then strolling on the Kanyapeeth
terrace. Since Kanyapeeth was a residential school for girls it was essential to
get the permission of Shree Shree Ma or Gurupriya Didi in order to enter within
the building. After receiving Ma’s permission, a few of us standing in front of
Kanyapeeth went upstairs to the terrace, and were conversing with Ma when
someone arrived and requested Ma to go downstairs. Ma immediately rushed
down. Within a few minutes I was instructed to go down. The others who were
present in the terrace followed me downstairs. In the ground floor, Ma was
seated in a cot in front of the present Kanyapeeth office. I went near Ma and
asked, “Ma, you have called me?” Ma replied, “Yes”. And instantly Ma took out
a medium sized brass bowl from underneath Her shawl. The bowl was filled to
the brim with thick sweet kheer. It even had a layer of yellow colored cream on
the top. Placing the bowl on my hands Ma said, “This Body has eaten some
kheer from this bowl. Now you eat it.” I observed that from a corner of the
bowl a small spoonful of kheer had been chipped which must have been offered
to Ma. I thought that with so much care and affection Gurupriya Didi must have
prepared this delicious kheer for Ma and Ma had presented me the whole bowl.
Didi surely may not like me eating the whole of it. Since I had not listened to
Shree Shree Ma’s instruction of staying permanently in the Ashram, I became
ashamed of myself with this action of Ma, and hoped that the mother earth