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40 MA ANANDAMAYEE AMRIT VARTA Vol. 27, No.1, February2023

would open up and swallow me within herself. This is similar to praising a sinful
person.
Because of my indecent behavior and present attitude, Buni (Kumari Phul
Jutika Guha, Ma’s sevika) must have given a sarcastic smile. Because of this
sarcasm Ma had informed Buni, “You have laughed? Your behaviour has just not
changed. If This Body, never ever, eats kheer again?” Hearing this Buni had
turned stone stiff.
Placing the bowl of kheer on my hand, Ma kept on persuading me to eat it.
Can a normal person besides being mad devour so much kheer? With Ma’s
repeated request to eat the kheer, finding no other option, I turned around to
distribute the prasâdi kheer to the devotees standing there. Immediately Ma
interrupted, “You cannot offer even a bit from this bowl to anybody. You have to
devour the whole.” Hearing Ma’s order, I said, “Ma, without distributing prasâd
from this, I cannot devour this poison. This is not a bowl of kheer. This is like a
bowl of poison for me. This is like a cobra’s poison.” Smilingly Ma said, “I want
to see how you die eating this strong poison.” Ma in general does not speak of
such harsh words especially like ‘die’. It is my misfortune that such harsh words
were uttered by Ma that day. However there is a proverb that if a mother curses
a child by saying ‘die’, then the child’s life span usually increases. Maybe that’s
why I am living for such a long age. There is no sign of death even now.”
With no option left I had to devour the whole bowl of kheer. The major sin
of misbehaving i.e. not respecting Ma’s instructions finally ended with the
devouring of Ma’s prasâdi kheer. Can anyone ever imagine this? Just as our Ma
is beyond creation, Ma’s rule is also beyond creation, beyond human
imagination. Ma is constantly forgiving all our sins. In return of our sins, we
receive from Shree Shree Ma genuine love, forgiveness and grace like the
endless flow of rain. I am truly ashamed and deeply anguished of not being able
to deliver the due respect of our compassionate Ma’s instructions.

(to be continued)

Not a single word uttered from Shree Shree Ma’s sacred lips
should go in vain and that Her memory is not under the control
of time; it is our duty to remember this.
- --- Bhaiji