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street; the squeaking wheeled easy chair given them by JB’s aunts. All that
                is missing is a paper him, a paper Willem.
                   He puts Lispenard Street on the floor by his feet. For a long time he sits

                very  still,  his  eyes  closed,  allowing  his  mind  to  reach  back  and  wander:
                there is much he doesn’t romanticize about those years, not now, but at the
                time, when he hadn’t known what to hope for, he hadn’t known that life
                could be better than Lispenard Street.
                   “What if we’d never left?” Willem would occasionally ask him. “What if
                I had never made it? What if you’d stayed at the U.S. Attorney’s Office?
                What if I was still working at Ortolan? What would our lives be like now?”

                   “How  theoretical  do  you  want  to  get  here,  Willem?”  he’d  ask  him,
                smiling. “Would we be together?”
                   “Of course we’d be together,” Willem would say. “That part would be the
                same.”
                   “Well,” he’d say, “then the first thing we’d do is tear down that wall and
                reclaim the living room. And the second thing we’d do is get a decent bed.”

                   Willem  would  laugh.  “And  we’d  sue  the  landlord  to  get  a  working
                elevator, once and for all.”
                   “Right, that’d be the next step.”
                   He sits, waiting for his breathing to return to normal. Then he turns on
                his phone, checks his missed calls: Andy, JB,  Richard, Harold and Julia,
                Black Henry Young, Rhodes, Citizen, Andy again, Richard again, Lucien,
                Asian  Henry  Young,  Phaedra,  Elijah,  Harold  again,  Julia  again,  Harold,

                Richard, JB, JB, JB.
                   He calls JB. It’s late, but JB stays up late. “Hi,” he says, when JB picks
                up, hears the surprise in his voice. “It’s me. Is this a good time to talk?”
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