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                AT LEAST ONE Saturday a month now he takes half a day off from work and
                goes  to  the  Upper  East  Side.  When  he  leaves  Greene  Street,  the
                neighborhood’s boutiques and stores haven’t yet opened for the day; when
                he returns, they are closed for the night. On these days, he can imagine the
                SoHo  Harold  knew  as  a  child:  a  place  shuttered  and  unpeopled,  a  place
                without life.
                   His first stop is the building on Park and Seventy-eighth, where he takes

                the elevator to the sixth floor. The maid lets him into the apartment and he
                follows her to the back study, which is sunny and large, and where Lucien is
                waiting—not waiting for him, necessarily, but waiting.
                   There is always a late breakfast laid out for him: thin wedges of smoked
                salmon and tiny buckwheat pancakes one time; a cake glazed white with

                lemon icing the next. He can never bring himself to eat anything, although
                sometimes when he is feeling especially helpless he accepts a slice of cake
                from the maid and holds the plate in his lap for the entire visit. But although
                he doesn’t eat anything, he does drink cup after cup of tea, which is always
                steeped exactly how he likes it. Lucien eats nothing either—he has been fed
                earlier—nor does he drink.
                   Now he goes to Lucien and takes his hand. “Hi, Lucien,” he tells him.

                   He had been in London when Lucien’s wife, Meredith, called him: it was
                the week of Bergesson’s retrospective at MoMA, and he had arranged to be
                out of the city on business. Lucien had had a massive stroke, Meredith said;
                he would live, but the doctors didn’t yet know how great the damage would
                be.
                   Lucien was in the hospital for two weeks, and when he was released, it

                was clear that his impairment was severe. And although it is not yet five
                months later, it has  remained so: the features on the left side of  his face
                seem to be melting off of him, and he cannot use his left arm or leg, either.
                He can still speak, remarkably well, but his memory has vanished, the past
                twenty years deserting him completely. In early July, he fell and hit his head
                and was in a coma; now, he is too unsteady to even walk, and Meredith has
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