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I have never felt so less of a person than now. No longer having my Joyselyn. I just cannot come to grips with the
knowledge that she is no longer there to have and to hold. I so much miss my friend. I do not even know who I am

anymore or why.

Feb. 17, 2020

This would have been our 31st Anniversary today. Born on the 18th, married on the 18th, Died on the
18th. I had such big plans for us today my Love, but they will have to wait.

Feb. 18, 2020

I am now ready to lie down beside her. Today I got Burial Insurance that will cover everything. No one will ever be
burdened with having to ask the question of what do you think we should do? I AM READY TO GO, and so done with

this life.

Feb. 18, 2020

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