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Sitting here looking at my to-do list, and all subjects have been checked off—the very same with my bucket list.
The only thing to do now is to wait. For what? No idea. After my beloved Joyselyn, I have no more interest in this world,

and the only future to hope for is a heavenly reunion. This world has nothing to offer, but I am sure my being here has a
purpose that only the Father knows. Praying He reveals His plan and purpose for me soon. I know He will not burden

me with what I cannot bear. That is one of His many promises. I must be obedient to His will; I must honor my gift
Joyselyn and all her hopes and prayers. She had so much faith that I would someday turn and face the Giver and turn

my life over to His Devine plan and purpose. So, here I am, now sitting with an empty to-do list, unsure what is needed

to make a new.

Sept. 27, 2020

One of my Facebook fans messaged me today, claiming that they have read all my posts about my life and the grief of
losing my wife, Joyselyn. Paraphrasing, Continued to say that my grief, combined with guilt, was causing me to make up

a fantasy love story that could never have happened the way I have described in my writings. I asked them if they have

ever met my wife and or me, and of course, they had not. I must say it took a lot to control myself from texting back
with an emotional outburst. Instead, I asked them how they could have come to that conclusion, and if all had been

read as claimed, you would have seen my faults on full display. The reply, “It is your faults that has blinded you to the
truth”. I asked if they could explain, but they never text back and, in a few minutes, blocked me.

Sept. 28, 2020

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