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Time is so liquid, like water seeking its own level. What happens when it arrives and meets the calm? Will it be like the
standing waters that turn and become stagnant? Is that the journey of our lives? Or do we go to shore where we can

find rest, seed, and grow a new life healthy and strong? I'm late in years and a seedling I am not. Healthy and strong?
The remaining strength I have on reserve, I know not how, what, or where to direct. Being alone is becoming a
stagnation for me—no more shores to fix my dreams, truth they are no more. Without my Joyselyn at my side, there is

no more dreaming. No more sights set on tomorrow. The only comfort I have remaining are yesterdays gone. I pray for
relief, but none soon to come. This heart so empty, longing for just another day, another touch, another kiss, and a

smile. I remain forever yours, my love.

Sept. 30, 2020

I am sitting thinking about Heaven, and all that comes to mind, will my once beloved Joyselyn, be there to greet me at

my last breath. Knowing this love, It could never have been of my own accord. Only God Himself could have planted
that seed and nurtured it. It is still in full bloom as far as I can tell—a gift from the Father. Hard for me to believe that

He would take back what He has given. I do not understand how that seal could be broken. What I feel could only be

shared with this lovely woman named Joyselyn. The Father is the only one that could deliver such a Sweetheart. We
lovers are so used to saying, “I’ll Love You Forever and a Day”. Something inside tells us that this is so. Something I have

never questioned, always in my given heart, have forever known it to be true. I can not pretend to know the heart or
mind of God, or His eternal plans, but I do hope there is a Timeshare Plan in Heaven. What is a million years or so

compared to a life lived in eternity?

Oct. 3, 2020

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