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December, Oh, how time goes by. Almost a full year of the emptiness of heart. Loneliness never to be imagined. No

more will to step up or step out in life. Life as I have known it no longer on this earth. I have so much to be thankful for,

so blessed my life has been. Knowing this creates no comfort when you lose your Soul-mate, my Joyselyn. She was the
life I lived, the light inside my heart, the song that played in my head—a day to day expression of love. God knew what I

needed in this life, and He loaned me this wonderful woman named Joyselyn. So hard to rise from sleep and realize she
is no longer at my side. No more “God Bless You Mornings” and words “I Love You” but find myself speaking them just

the same. Always a little prayer that somehow that wakeup greeting gets shared with her.

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I will always live to honor this love of my life, my Joyselyn. She will be the best of me till the time when my life is no

more. I know she would put up a fight over my confessions that I continue to share in this journal with friends and or
strangers. My Joyselyn would never let me see myself in this dim light that I share. Her voice was always a celebration of

joy. She was celebrating that I belonged to her, that I was her husband to have and hold. She was always giving thanks
to the Father for sharing me with her. Now it is up to me to be at my best, to see and live in that bright light that my

Joyselyn surrounded me with. That I will prayerfully endeavor to do, live in that light.

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