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A few days home trying to get back to our typical day today. It was difficult for us with all that was to come with more

doctor visits. The frightening unknowns with the many tests my Joyselyn was going to face. Caught her hiding with

tears running down her face. "What's wrong, baby? Is it the pain? What can I do for you, anything?" She answered
with "Some pain" but continued with the hardship her health was putting on me. Now I could not help but join her in

tears. "What hardship? How can you even think such a thing? You, my love, could never be a hardship to me".

I was all so honored to be there for my Joyselyn. I loved taking care of her. Finally, I had a chance to show up as a loving

devoted husband there at her side to do anything needed to make her life comfortable and free. To love her through
all she was going through.

These new test Joyselyn was going to take were not related to her Liver as we had thought. Her examination showed

that the Liver was reacting normally. I know this laid heavy on my Joyselyn's heart, mine as well. We both had faith that
our Heavenly Father was in charge, and I knew He would take care of His precious daughter Joyselyn. I witnessed the

love between them and had little doubt that He would heal her. We did pray that His will be done. Today looking back
at my prayers, I wish I had been more to the point. Asking for His mercy and to grace us with a long healthy life

together. Thirty-five years is not a long time, and for me, forever with this gift; this woman on loan would never be
enough time.

I have learned so much truth about life from this one person, my Joyselyn. So much about the heart and all that it can
hold, withstand, and share. Never will I have that warmth surround me in this life again. I will take all that she has

given, all that she has prayed over me, I will honor her life lived, her many sacrifices made on my behalf. I will forever

let her life shine through me with love, till my last breath.

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