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NEW YEAR’S EVE

A New Year just hours away, and it hurts me to call it 2020 WON!

This year has been a bad one for most of us. It saddens my heart to know so many are hurting. And many will not
recover from all that has happened in the past 365 days. My misfortune started 346 days ago with my Joyselyn, leaving

for her new heavenly home. I do take great comfort knowing that, but what an empty space lift behind. There will
never be a new year in this lonely heart and life of mine. Seventy-one years, and never thought I could or would have

such a devastating loss in this life. I know I’m not alone, also know that, like me, many will not be celebrating or ringing

any bells at midnight. For me, it’s just a count down to my expiration date.

It is my prayer that everyone will have a wonderful New Year and all Yahushua's Blessing be with you and give you peace.

Dec. 31, 2020

How am I to feel? What must I do to live this life without my Joyselyn? I keep listening for her voice, her advice; my

heart and mind are so in conflict with any reason. It seems like this fight will never end. They continue in dreams, each
reminding me that I will nevermore be a whole person. I so much want to reach out to have and to hold my love just

one more time. How so comforting it was to be in those protected arms. A warmth that I cannot describe. How blessed
I have been to have known such love, peace, and comfort. Now it feels so much like a curse. A New Year be damned,

just a mark in time.

Jan. 4, 2021

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