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POE TR Y  C ORNER




              Soundtracks                                     Six String Maladie


              Dom Gagliardi                                   Dom Gagliardi


              As a young boy,                                 You stand poised in your corner,
              somewhere between the tides                     seductively posed
              of  gullibility and adolescent arrogance,       in your veil of  dust
              I often watched my father,                      like a temptress whose time has passed.
              lying propped on one elbow,                     The scratches on your once smooth skin
              listening to the music of  his era,             are scars of  tortured practice and sonorous melodies.
              attempting to understand its appeal,
              while guessing at his thoughts locked behind eyes shut.  Yet, you lure me in
                                                              and tease my head with a dream long since dead.
              Or I would be a hanger-on,                      I conjure up the times I caressed you,
              when he and his friends would gather            my fingers curved around your neck
              and sing and cavort to their shared music       with youthful agility and finesse,
              in a concert of  reminiscence,                  pressing for your response
              joyful for what they had,                       with sounds of  sheer delight.
              tearful for the possibilities.
                                                              You led me on,
              Their jocularity would sting,                   set me on fire
              as I resented the remembered criticisms         to think I could please your every want.
              my father sometimes unleashed in his ridicule   But you took me half  way,
              of  the music that stirred my heart and shook my soul,  denying the success I never learned to earn
              which for him was nothing but excessive noise and   while shielding you from the spotlight and point of  no
                mumbled words.                                   return,
                                                              with my hands now tied in knots of  wonder
              Shrouded in naive and pubescent sarcasm,        and dwelling on what could have been.
              I drew the invisible lines of  generational warfare,
              painting them with dismissiveness and derision,   Relentless in your pose,
              attributed to irreconcilable tastes             I ignore your dares
              which only fueled the fighting words            as you tempt my gnarled fingers
              between a man and a boy,                        to set you unabandoned.
              a father and a son.                             For I am afraid to touch you,
                                                              in fear I could not please you,
              With decades past, my father long gone,         and wonder why I keep you
              and with sons and grandchildren of  my own,     to taunt me
              the music of  my youth                          with the buried sounds of  distant music.
              strikes a different chord.
              It’s not a disdain for the current music I feel;
              its rhythmic sensations can enliven.

              But I was too young when my father was not old
                enough
              to see the subtle difference,
              that notes become strings of  melodies,
              and melodies become woven memories.
              For it’s not a judgment, but instead a preference;
              to hold onto one’s past
              as the days remaining get shorter,
              and the shadow of  yesterdays looms larger,
              as I lie with eyes shut tightly, propped on one elbow.




                                  These selections are from the forthcoming collection titled “Reflections from the Edge”.  To join
                                       the interest list for its first publication, contact me at dom.gagliardi@cox.net
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