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ordeal as they will use all their experiences in a positive way.
This positive use will appear to them as ‘being normal’ but to
the unaware ‘being normal’ has become a cruel and
inhospitable existence. This latter is caused by the bitter
inward struggle between their ego and their ego. The ego has
become divided and each side blames the other. You will hear
exclamations such as, “How could I have been so stupid”, (the
blame), and, “I couldn’t see any other way”, (the excuse). The
result of this exercise is unhappiness and disillusion. For the
initiated and aware human this does not happen. The ego
remains in tact and in its place and all is well. The twenty
nine/thirty year old usually finds this part of their life to be
quite difficult. Had they but known then they would have seen
this period differently and discovered their capacity to deal
with the issues as they were presented to them for their
attention. Again we use the analogy of the student facing their
end of term examinations. Those who were prepared, though
they will have had apprehensions about what is to come, will
go through the tests comfortably. Those who were unprepared
will struggle and experience remorse. They will blame the
people who set the tests for being inhuman and unfair, rather
than take responsibility for their being unprepared. The thirty
year old adult when confronted with the energy of Saturn
returning to its natal place in their horoscope will blame
everything they can before they will begin to take
responsibility for their own ignorance. There is nothing wrong
in admitting that you didn’t know, in fact this admission is the
first step in gaining the knowledge missing from your
awareness. The know all knows little, and doesn’t know it!
One cannot fill an already full bucket. If the bucket is full of
solid matter then liquid cannot displace it. If ones knowledge