Page 79 - ILIAS ATHANASIADIS AKA RO1

Sat there all night I didn’t turn the lights on just dark sitting looking

at the abyss in front of me, dark thoughts scared no one to ralk too

alone cry and cry and cry until my mouth was so dry I could not

swallow.

At the end I fell a sleep Fully clothed

Waking up to the sunlight and try to see some positive coming out of

the virus but I couldn;t find anything,

The stigma was too big those days you loose your job you loose your

friends family they don’t want to know you the stigma is too big

they will damage their reputation and the church did not help at all.

In fact the codem the gay men as dirty perverts redophiles they

deserve whay they get and some had the nerve to say HIV was

God’s punishment to the gay community.

With all that in mind how can I tell anyone and I did not. For ten

years I kept it to myself not a word to anybody and I must have been

lucky because I never developed KARPOSIS or gay cancer as they

use to call it . I kept the job the friends and family.

My life change again I start see things with different prespective her

voice still inside my head, - for the next six months you are ok after

that I can say what is going to happen as it is most die- and on and

on and on.