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scary to hear. As I listened, I started to realize the way she looked at life and
this experience was different then how I did or would want to move forward.

All I knew was that half way into the conversation I didn’t want to hear
anymore. I didn’t want to hear that the place she went to have her radiation
treatment looked like a nuclear plant or that after the treatment, she felt sick. I
didn’t want to hear that she couldn’t drive for months or that her equilibrium
was off. She compared the radiation experience that she had to have and the
days and months after, like going to hell. She said she’d been to hell before
and this was going back.

I couldn’t believe what she was saying to me. Even if it were true, how could
you say that to someone about to go down that path. It was seriously the
worst thing I could have ever heard. I later tried to find the humor in it, but I
couldn't. All I knew was I didn’t want to hear another word. She totally
freaked me out and set me back.

I did feel bad for her, but this was not a time in my life where I could be her
hero. I needed every part of me to be my own super hero. The other Terri
was a different kind of person then me. No matter if our experience was the
same, I was not going to let myself go there. I’d find some way to have a
better experience, if not for me, at least someone else.

Once the call ended, I started telling Jay what had happened. It was sad it
had gone that way and I was a bit bummed, but I’d rather go through this by
myself than to hear anything like that again.

Lori Roberts
Suddenly, a call came in. It was my dear friend Lori. I quickly answered and
started telling her what had just happened. She could tell I was a bit in shock
by the previous call. Right away, Lori told me to get that out of my brain. I