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From total despair His voice gently pierced my calloused
spirit with these words: “John, you’ve been trying to
love me your whole life. Have you noticed something,
you’re not really good at it? From now on let’s try
something different. I never want you to try and love
me, or serve me or do something you think will make
Me love you. From now on you are going to let Me love
you. When your eyes open in the morning you must
throw off the covers like they are snakes and jump out
of bed before you fall victim to your “stinking thinking”.
You have only a few seconds before the “old man” steals
the day from you. Put on some clothes and sit in my
presence in silence. Just let Me love you!”
I don’t have the space to testify the radical change that
took place as I listened to the Lord and let Him love me
every day. One day I will write a book just about that.
But most importantly I learned what Job learned. I had
heard of Him with the hearing of these weak fleshly
ears. But now I see Him with the eyes of faith He gave
me. I am thirsty only for Him and satisfied only with His
water. Our faith is a gift, that when received like the
seed of life that it is, grows into the life of His only Son.
He now lives in, with and through us.

As I struggled over the past few weeks with
gastrointestinal issues culminating in surgery this
Thursday, I can truly report that the heavenly warfare of
Job is still happening in my life and I know it’s
happening in yours. Being hospitalized for eleven days
over the past two weeks has given me ample
opportunity to finish this book, but I just couldn’t get it
done. Having had cancer three times in the past and
now finding three tumors in my stomach and duodenum,
you can imagine the onslaught of fear and accusations
coming from the enemy. But having been engrossed for
a month in editing and meditating on the true meaning
of the Book of Job I found myself living the principles
we are trying to share.
I had much time in the midnight hours listening to His
“songs in the night” and practicing seeking Him for

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