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Little did we know that your last week at home when you were upset with us for not allowing you to go
the door to go home that you were not talking Cat Island but Heaven. I will remember your last walk
about when you came to my room that Thursday night and sat down for a few minutes and just looked
around and said nothing. You went and looked in at Tammy as she sat on her bed. Little did we know
that a week later you would be gone.

That Saturday morning after giving you your bath as you came out, you went to mom and told her you
loved her and thanked her. We didn’t think anything of it because you had done it before. Little did
we know it would be the last time.
Daaaaaad, I saw you leave me for the last time, and I cried, am still crying because I know you left me
here and will not be back. However, God had prepared me that you were going to be leaving. When
we took you to the hospital, I prayed that they would give us some meds and send you home. When I
had to leave you, it hurt my heart. The Dr. didn’t even let me tell you I had to leave. It broke my heart
to think that you would think I just left you there. I found myself praying/begging that God not let you
die alone in the hospital. This was God preparing me for your departure. I spent the whole day
Sunday calling Doctors and Nurses who you may remember asking them to please go and visit you
and explain to you why you were there and why we could not see you.
I am so grateful for my best friend Dr. Dominic Turnquest who went by sometimes 3 times a day to
check on you and give us an update. We are grateful also to Nurse Jenny Storr & Nursing Sister
Debra Deveaux, who went and spent time with you. Dr. Ron Deveaux and others who went and
checked on your progress. This meant a lot to us as we could not be there with you.

When I woke up sing “When the home gates swing open for me” on Thursday Morning, I rebuked it
and said NOOO, I am not singing no funeral song. God was once again preparing me, but I refused
to accept it. However, it kept coming to my mind “That will be a happy day…. When the home gates
swing open..”
When we went to pick you up, little did I realize that our time with you was slowing coming to an end.
Little did I know that I was feeding you for the last time your favorite pumpkin soup. When I saw you
take your last breath. I knew that God had been preparing me for a few days that you would be
leaving me. Yes leaving me here on earth but not forever because I know that I will see you again. So
I cry because I miss you sooo much, but not without hope. I rejoice because I know you are free from
the confines of your frail body and mind that would not allow you to do and communicate like the great
orator you were. I cry because I don’t hear you calling my name, or asking me where I was when I
came home or where I was going, or telling me not to go out. But I rejoice because you are with your
Lord and Savior.
Daaaaaad Forever is a long time. I have loved you and will continue to Love
you forever. Until we meet again, My heart and voice will continue to sing of
the goodness of God. Until then I will continue to take care of the love of
your life Mom. Until the day I see my Savior and God calls me home and I
get to see you again. Until then Rest in Paradise you have earned it.

Your One and Only Gillian

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