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Vol. 27, No.1, February 2023 MA ANANDAMAYEE AMRIT VARTA 13

Kirtan was held there for some time, Ma too sang a few kirtans. All of us
returned back at dusk.
Trust in God’s benevolent dispensation
2nd Âshâd 1356, Thursday (16-6-1949). In the night Puran was again the
topic of discussion. Puran’s mother had wept and pleaded at Ma’s lotus feet for
her son’s survival. Hence I asked Ma, “It would have been appropriate to keep
Puran alive for a few more days.” Ma said, “While Puran was ill This Body had
a kheyâl that it is good for him to leave his body now. Similarly when Gopibaba
had gone to Puri, then too This Body had seen that Baba would suffer from a
major illness, but immediately after that had a kheyâl that the disease should
not give too much harm to Baba. Just as This Body does not have any awareness
of what others will comment, similarly there is no thought of publicizing This
Body. But you all are thinking that if Puran is kept alive for a few more days
then everyone will think that Ma has only saved him from death, which may not
have been the reason. It could have been anything, effect of proper treatment,
effect of proper medicines, sermons of the mahatmas of Khanna, the blessings
of the mahatmas, etc. The cause of the recovery from illness can be accorded to
any of the various reasons. You just cannot estimate the profound benefits that
may be present within an action that you think to detrimental now.
Many a time someone is told to perform a certain work. While performing
that action he however does not succeed. For example someone is told to give
an exam and he fails in that exam. Observing this you may think that you have
uselessly appointed him, but it is not in vain. Because, maybe that work was still
left to be done and by appearing in that exam that action was fulfilled. Nothing
goes in vain.”
Myself: Ma, it is difficult to understand that all your actions are beneficial
to us. Hence sometimes it becomes difficult to have faith on you.
Ma: That is of course true, because even after pondering when you do not
find anything beneficial then it is difficult to understand that all actions of God
are beneficial and hence disbelief arises. Now if this disbelief grows day by day
then one day you will fall prey to it. Hence This Body states that if ever a doubt
arises on seeing something then occasionally ask This Body. Then the feelings
of doubt and disbelief will not be able to grow. However if the thoughts that,
whatever God does is for our benefit, is kept in mind and everything is logically
observed then one day you will get this realization and then you will be able to
clearly understand that all this that God has done is all for our benefit only.
* * * * (to be continued)