Page 22 - Amrit Varta - Issue Feb. 2023 - English

14 MA ANANDAMAYEE AMRIT VARTA Vol. 27, No.1, February2023

In Ma’s own Words
Ma narrates to Bhaiji
Bhaiji
(continued from before)

Preparation for departing to Haridwar for Purna-Kumbh
Before Jyotish fell ill he had mentioned ‘This time Purna-Kumbh would be
held in Haridwar. Will you go?’ I said, ‘Yes’. So accordingly preparation was
made for the proceeding to Haridwar, there were almost 20-21 companions
along with us. Jyotish was bedridden and hence he could not accompany us.
Rajendra Kushari is a childhood friend of Bholanath. He works in the residence
of the Kundu’s. He once brought Jogendra Kundu to Shahbagh. Then it had been
decided that we could stay in his residence in Kolkata on the way to Haridwar.
On reaching Kolkata we stayed in that house. The unnatural behaviors’ of This
Body were especially observed during that period. All the time there was as if a
feeling of emptiness. While climbing up or coming down a staircase, always
tried to concentrate and keep the feet steadily on the stairs, but this used to
further increase the uneasiness. With a gazed look or even with the eyes shut
This Body used to fall down senseless. But again recovered back after sometime.
From the aspirant’s point of view, when an aspirant becomes immersed and
intoxicated within himself, then where are his japa, dhyan, puja, etc? He is
then engrossed within a supreme thought. Again sometimes some depending on
their own sankârs can move about by observing the abnormality within their
normal behaviour or normalcy within their abnormality. Then initially his
abnormality is observed, and later his body becomes motionless, stiff and firm.
When this state remains for a long time in the aspirant then the body too gets
similarly transformed. This Body was then moving in an unknown emotion. In
this situation there is no question of anyone’s willingness or unwillingness.
Ma in Kolkata
Pyaribanu, a relative of the Nawab of Dhaka, lives in Kolkata. One day a
kirtan was held in their house. We went there in the evening. In the huge hall of
her house a lot of men and women had gathered. The wobbly feeling was still
persisting in This Body. The conditions during kirtan occurred again. Pyaribanu
and her children were quite excited for the kirtan. Pyaribanu started shedding
tears while singing ‘haribol’. Later kirtan was once again held in their house,