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16 MA ANANDAMAYEE AMRIT VARTA Vol. 27, No.1, February2023

Ma in the Ashram of Balanand Brahmachariji
Once we went to Deoghar. There we went to the Ashram of Prangopalbabu’s
Gurudev Balanand Brahmachariji. Seeing This Body Maharaj’ji said, ‘Once You
had given darshan in the subtle form, now You have arrived to give me darshan
in the gross body. One day during kirtan This Body’s state became like earlier
days. Maharaj’ji and his disciples sat down surrounding This Body and when
This Body became normal asked, ‘Two or One’. Word came out, ‘One’. Maharaj’ji
said, ‘Two’. Laughingly a lot of discussion occurred in this manner. Later asked
him, ‘Two in which manner’? Maharaj’ji said, ‘Two, because He and I’. This
Body said, ‘He is not without I and again without He I is not’.
Before coming to Deoghar, for the last few days, whenever This Body used
to get up from the bed or was taking a stroll and sometimes at other time too,
like a whisper the word Sohang used to come out from the lips. Sometimes it
was uttered loudly too. The people nearby used to enquire what had been uttered.
But no reply came out. Few thought that This Body was uttering Shivohang.
Later had heard this word from someone, but nobody uttered Sohang. There is
a similar word like this but that word too was not heard from anyone. Later
within, an explanation arose that Sohang means being in One Entity which
implies Only and only I. During that time there was almost no movement. To lie
down immobile and steady was the only essence. Days and night passed in the
same manner. The same feeling, on getting up. After sitting visualized, a filled
pot supported from all sides so as to remain steady and motionless, This Body
too is sitting in that very manner. This feeling existed all the time, even while
walking. Sometimes while standing This Body used to become stiff and firm,
the eyes staring and the eyelids motionless. This Body remained like this in
Deoghar. Maharaj’ji expressed great joy with This Body’s state. He ordered
lichis (an edible fruit) and he himself cleaned it and started feeding This Body.
We were residing in Prangopalbabu’s residence and from there daily morning
and evening went to the Ashram. Most of the time kept lying in the Ashram.
One day kirtan started and there was a change within This Body. Balanand
Brahmachari Maharaj’ji came near This Body and somehow the Hand of This
Body rose and settled on his head. Then Maharaj’ji escorted This Body to his
meditation room and closed the door. Very affectionately he showed his place
of meditation. Very joyously he informed about his personal matters and kriyas,
etc. A little further from there is a place called Tapovan which is secluded and
lonely. This Body affectionately told him, ‘Baba you should go and stay there!’