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Sitting here looking at my to-do list, and all subjects have been checked off—the very same as my bucket list.
The only thing to do now is to wait. For what? No idea. After my beloved Joyselyn, I have no more interest in this world,

and the only future to hope for is a heavenly reunion. This world has nothing to offer, but I am sure my being here has a
purpose only the Father knows. Praying He reveals His plan and purpose for me soon. I know He will not burden me

with what I cannot bear. That is one of His many promises. I must be obedient to His will and honor my gift Joyselyn
and all her hopes and prayers. She had so much faith that I would someday turn and face the Giver and turn my life

over to His Devine plan and purpose. So, here I am, now sitting with an empty to-do list, unsure what is needed to

make a new one.

Sept. 27, 2020

One of my Facebook fans messaged me today, claiming they have read all my posts about my life and the grief of losing
my wife, Joyselyn. Paraphrasing, Continued to say that my grief, combined with guilt, was causing me to make up a

fantasy love story that could never have happened as I described in my writings. I asked them if they had ever met my

wife and or me; of course, they had not. I must say it took a lot to control myself from texting back with an emotional
outburst. Instead, I asked them how they could have come to that conclusion, and if all had been read as claimed, you

would have seen my faults on full display. The reply, “It is your faults that have blinded you to the truth”. I asked if they
could explain, but they never text back and blocked me in a few minutes.

Sept. 28, 2020

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