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This life will never be beholding to more dreams, hopes, and nothing more to inspire. No words to be spoken in love, no

more to be heard in kind. No more arms in wait for that hug so soft, so secure. No more feeling that warm breath

caressing my face, no more lips that gently nurse my soul. No more hearing or feeling my heart speak; no more will it
converse with our Joyselyn. My mind strives to live like a child in a fairytale dream where my Joyselyn is still my Princess

Bride. What I would do, what dragons I would slay for another day. If only a kiss would do it, but I have already tried.
Then she was peacefully laid to rest.

Oct. 12, 2020

How far is Heaven? Is it just a breath and a heartbeat away? Entertaining that day of travel has become so much of a

focus in these last days of my life. Hoping I have the right Boarding Pass in hand when that moment arrives—no baggage

to check in. No one left to say goodbye to. Who will be there to greet me? Will, my Sweetheart Joyselyn, be with
Adonai on that day? I hope to see her familiar face and feel her gentle spirit again. What a lonely journey without her

these months have been. A lovesick heart that cries out to know where she is and how she has been. Longing to be with
her so much. I pray that she joins me in dreams, but no memory have I to cling to when I awake. My heart and I know

where and with whom her new life begins, just as promised. We know she is pain-free, tear-free, and forever full of joy. I
am happy for her, but I and my empty, lonely heart remain impatiently waiting the day to hand over my Boarding Pass.

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