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My Joyselyn left a few days before this so-called pandemic kicked in. I know it would not have had any effect on her

well-being or state of mind. She was so strong in her faith, so insightful to the workings of this world and its evils. She,
without any doubt, would have seen the plot that been unfolding before everyone’s eyes way in advance. Days before

her trip home, she warned me about the evil coming. Instructed me to keep my hand in the hand of Adonai, never to
pull away from Him. Those last words she wrote me always stick in my heart and mind, “Seek Adonai while He may be

found, Pray for His plan, purpose, and will for you.” I have underlined this for you, dear reader. This is not only a
message for me but for you as well. Looking at how crazy and evil this world has become, it can’t be long before our

heavenly Father says it’s time. I want to be ready for that calling, and I pray you to do too. So, I’m pleading and praying

you to make ready for that day. Hope to see you there.

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There was always so much hope in our lives. I selfishly looked in so many directions to fulfill those elusive dreams.

None ever came to be. I always thought I could fill them on my own. Very little trust did I put in the Father. Fearful that
His plan for me was out of step with what I wanted to do or be. My beloved Joyselyn always prayed that His will be

done in my life, and I would turn to Him for the answers I seek. I never knew the questions to ask of Him, more like the
fear of the answers I would receive. I always wanted my Joyselyn to be proud of me and bless her heart; she forever

displayed that sentiment. She was always a voice of great hope and compassion, continuedly encouraging my dreams
to come true. Looking back at all my failed attempts and sinful life, I sit in shame of not being the man, the husband,

the obedient child of the Highest. Alone now without my Joyselyn witnessing my coming to God’s terms. Not living that

life with her is a hurt and a regret that will forever be felt.

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