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lect that his silence hurt and offended me very much. Why
did he not speak?
‘That his arrival at this time of night struck me as more
or less strange may possibly be the case; but I remember I
was by no means amazed at it. On the contrary, though I
had not actually told him my thought in the morning, yet I
know he understood it; and this thought was of such a char-
acter that it would not be anything very remarkable, if one
were to come for further talk about it at any hour of night,
however late.
‘I thought he must have come for this purpose.
‘In the morning we had parted not the best of friends; I
remember he looked at me with disagreeable sarcasm once
or twice; and this same look I observed in his eyes now—
which was the cause of the annoyance I felt.
‘I did not for a moment suspect that I was delirious and
that this Rogojin was but the result of fever and excitement.
I had not the slightest idea of such a theory at first.
‘Meanwhile he continued to sit and stare jeeringly at me.
‘I angrily turned round in bed and made up my mind
that I would not say a word unless he did; so I rested silently
on my pillow determined to remain dumb, if it were to last
till morning. I felt resolved that he should speak first. Prob-
ably twenty minutes or so passed in this way. Suddenly the
idea struck me—what if this is an apparition and not Rogo-
jin himself?
‘Neither during my illness nor at any previous time had
I ever seen an apparition;—but I had always thought, both
when I was a little boy, and even now, that if I were to see

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