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and where to wound him and how, and therefore, as the
       marriage was still only in embryo, Totski decided to con-
       ciliate her by giving it up. His decision was strengthened by
       the fact that Nastasia Philipovna had curiously altered of
       late. It would be difficult to conceive how different she was
       physically, at the present time, to the girl of a few years ago.
       She was pretty then … but now! … Totski laughed angrily
       when he thought how short-sighted he had been. In days
       gone by he remembered how he had looked at her beautiful
       eyes, how even then he had marvelled at their dark myste-
       rious depths, and at their wondering gaze which seemed to
       seek an answer to some unknown riddle. Her complexion
       also had altered. She was now exceedingly pale, but, curi-
       ously, this change only made her more beautiful. Like most
       men of the world, Totski had rather despised such a cheaply-
       bought conquest, but of late years he had begun to think
       differently about it. It had struck him as long ago as last
       spring that he ought to be finding a good match for Nas-
       tasia; for instance, some respectable and reasonable young
       fellow serving in a government office in another part of the
       country. How maliciously Nastasia laughed at the idea of
       such a thing, now!
          However, it appeared to Totski that he might make use of
       her in another way; and he determined to establish her in St.
       Petersburg, surrounding her with all the comforts and lux-
       uries that his wealth could command. In this way he might
       gain glory in certain circles.
          Five years of this Petersburg life went by, and, of course,
       during that time a great deal happened. Totski’s position
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