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and rather tired of her present life. Having remarked how
       difficult it was for him, of all people, to speak to her of these
       matters, Totski concluded by saying that he trusted Nasta-
       sia Philipovna would not look with contempt upon him if
       he now expressed his sincere desire to guarantee her future
       by a gift of seventy-five thousand roubles. He added that
       the sum would have been left her all the same in his will,
       and that therefore she must not consider the gift as in any
       way an indemnification to her for anything, but that there
       was no reason, after all, why a man should not be allowed
       to entertain a natural desire to lighten his conscience, etc.,
       etc.; in fact, all that would naturally be said under the cir-
       cumstances. Totski was very eloquent all through, and, in
       conclusion, just touched on the fact that not a soul in the
       world, not even General Epanchin, had ever heard a word
       about  the  above  seventy-five  thousand  roubles,  and  that
       this was the first time he had ever given expression to his
       intentions in respect to them.
          Nastasia Philipovna’s reply to this long rigmarole aston-
       ished both the friends considerably.
          Not only was there no trace of her former irony, of her
       old hatred and enmity, and of that dreadful laughter, the
       very recollection of which sent a cold chill down Totski’s
       back to this very day; but she seemed charmed and really
       glad to have the opportunity of talking seriously with him
       for once in a way. She confessed that she had long wished
       to have a frank and free conversation and to ask for friend-
       ly advice, but that pride had hitherto prevented her; now,
       however, that the ice was broken, nothing could be more
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