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30. Revealing everything

I wish I could hand over my last letter to you so you could read
my thoughts

I wish for you to go through those words and relish on my daily
bed feelings

How foolish I was in allowing you to speak in my ears.

I wish I had elongated my words so you could taste the salt
within the water I drink

For you to know what it‟s like to be stupefied by love.

Love that I denied initially yet after separation

Realized that it was a true drug with me being the regular.

It took me time to heal, of which I‟m still processing

But what would you know about my scars?

I became so numb to you but surely as I write I will be free
again.

I won‟t feel what I felt neither melt at your low, calmed voice

Making me wonder how you have grown.

I‟m not going back there because you might take me as a gold
miner

Even so, I doubt I could care any less

Since it would end the little I have for you.

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