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calculated by a trained astrologer and are specific to you.
Generally though, the effects of this planet can be felt around
the age of twenty five. The next few years, the years prior to
the Saturn return, can be likened to the preparations for your
college end of term examination. It is an event that spans
years both before and after the actual event. You will begin to
feel the effects of this energy increasingly from about this age
and probably for the next decade. At about this age, twenty
five, you will begin to evaluate your life up to now. In college
one would begin their revision of their course notes and
exercises. Unfortunately, in life journey terms, as the major
component has been generally absent, the component of
spiritual awareness, there is no foundation on which to fully
measure how you have handled your life. You have no basis
for understanding how you actually feel about your life. All
your measurements are taken from the physical and material
success you feel you have had. The average twenty five year
old will see life in a very ‘black or white’ way, it being either
success or failure. Should they see failure they will find an
excuse to resign themselves to be such and further use this
excuse for behaviour that suits what they deem themselves to
be. It is often found that the un-empowered will resort to
reactionary behaviour. This is similar to the uninitiated
teenager who resorts to ‘sex, drugs and rock and roll’ in order
to gain some sense of ‘power’ and ‘control’ in their own lives.
All their behaviour is to cover up their true feelings as they do
not have the means to expressly be who they are. Saturn
provides the opportunity to take a fresh look at oneself. The
apprehension that you would have experienced in your
mother’s womb while still waiting for your birth is similar to
the inexplicable feelings that the twenty five year old is